A moment of thoughts

It is almost 3am here, as normal i was the last one in this house to go to bed. Listening David Tao's at such a peaceful cold night makes me think of "life" again... I wanted so much to go SG where the sky is more blue and the river is colder..and where i feel God more..surfing through internet..peeking people's happy photos taken at oversea...makes something inside me dying...slowly.. Help me with this O'lord..